Just felt like blogging all of a sudden. Lol. 6.23am, officially awake for 48 hours. 0.o
Today, hmmm, was quite fun ya. Went out to dota with my bros, left at 6am, went to have breakfast.
Caspar and I decided not to slp, so home we went, and dota until 12pm. Met out and went to office area, went for 3 games of billiard first, and I lost all 3 games, in which we were both fighting for the last miserable black ball 2 of the 3 games.
Went and met melvin. At TPY too. Then slacked all the way until 9, only to be informed that grouping was cancelled. So off we went, some slacking at Orchard, and then to Novena. Hahaha, we're mad. And had a heart to heart talk with my bro, BRANDIE PHUA WEN WEN! Only to discover that we 2 actually had quite alot in common. And found out about some hilarious secrets. LOL.
Well, that's how I spent the last 2 days of mine.
Anyway, one sentence which I found very true. One has to let go of something, b4 another comes. All these while, I have had mixed feelings. Am all whirled up inside my already cramped mind of mine, cramped with memories of her, that is.
Sometimes, I just hate myself. I don't know what I want for myself. A part of me still miss you so much that I just wanna hold u tight to me and not care about any other thing else. While another, is just to maintain this distance between you and me, so as to make things easier for both of us.
Roar, I just wanna live my life peacefully. And I have a dream currently, which is the promise between you and me myself. You're my main source of motivation, and I hope that this flame will not die out, just like my passion for you.
Sometimes, I don't know what you're really thinking about, I just somehow feel that you're almost the same as me. Yearning, yet the distance needs to be maintained, just in case if things turn out wrongly again. Are we both scared of making anymore mistakes again?
I always never fail to steal glimpses of you from time to time, just like a secret admirer. But, as sad to say as it is, that's the most which I can do. To look at you at a corner, hoping that you'll be fine, when I know that sometimes you're not.
This love game is really tiring me out, I wanna move on, for a brighter future. For our promise. For being able to give you a much more comfortable life than what you've ever wanted.
Will you be there for me, to edge me on, be it openly or secretly? Will I always be able to see you ard me, giving me hope and motivation?
Erm, sry guys I know the above content sounds abit cheesey and corny, but those are really my heart-felt thoughts. Pls bear with it.
As ignorant about you I may seem, I still care. I still worry. And I know that you know it yourself too. Just that, we cant do whatever we want due to certain circumstances. This I understand.
Whatever it is, no matter how things turn out in the future, come what may, I just want you to know, that there'll always be me. To be around you, to lend u a listening ear whenever you need one, a shoulder for u to lean on whenever you're down, a warm hug to let you know that you're appreciated, and a soft kiss to show that you're still being loved.
I've really fallen this time, I've fallen, in love. With you. STHW. :')
